Marriedaddictedbator

First off I am a 52 married man and father of 2. I am also a chronic porn addicted masturbator. My wife, family and friends have no clue how addicted I am but I spend hours a day worshiping porn and masturbating my gooned out cock.

This is how it all started:

When I was 12/13 years old my older brother’s room was up in the attic and I would spend many hours up there just exploring the rooms and playing.

Next to his room he had a very large walk-in closet where I used to hide playing hide and seek with my family and friends. One day I was up there alone and I noticed an old golf bag. When I went over to pick it up and bring it into the light I noticed it felt very heavy.

I took the golf bag out and what I found would change my life forever. I reached in and pulled out a whole stack of porn magazines. I can still remember clearly how I felt. My breath shortened and my cock got instantly hard as I saw Hustler, Playboy, Penthouse, Screw, and other magazines. I literally almost shot my load in my pants.

I instantly stripped down and grabbed hold of my dripping teen cock and proceeded to blow one of the hardest loads I had ever blown in my life. The sight of all those pussies and cocks was absolutely amazing. I stood above the open magazines and just masturbated my cock like there was no tomorrow. Shooting my cum over and over. Needless to say, I spent every hour I could that summer masturbating my cock to the glorious porn.

Every time my older brother went off to work or out with his friends, I was up in his room masturbating. I would spend hours up in his room stroking my hard cock and blowing load after load all over my brother’s room.

The next big step for me in my growing addiction was when I was station in NYC in the 1980’s. I was 18 years old. At that time, Time Square was the porn capital of the world and it did not take me long to find it. Every chance I got I would head up to Time Square and spend hours in the porn booths stroking my cock and going deeper and deeper into my addiction. I was amazed at the selection of porn they had in the booths and my perversions kept growing and growing.

Once I was home, the first thing I did was look for booths. This was before the internet so porn stores were still big. I was able to find one in my town and that fed my addition to another level. The booths there had windows so when you hit a button you could see the person in the next booth. The first time I did it I was so scared but the more I tried it the more I liked not only watching another guys masturbate but more and more I realized how much I loved having someone watching me masturbating. I would go into the booths and completely strip down and then turn the window on. It was amazing and although I did not know the term then, I was really starting to learn how to edge and goon.

Then came the internet! I was married at the time but once we hooked up to AOL, my addiction really came on full. I found myself sitting at the computer for hours with my hard cock in my hand surfing porn and chatting with others like me. As so many captions say today, I would sit down at the computer screen to have a quick stoke and before I knew it, 5 or 6 hours had passed and there is was naked with precum all over my cock and hand. I found that I started not even wanting to have sex with my wife but rather just surfing porn and masturbating. I ended up getting divorced and then made the mistake of getting married again. If I had known then what I know now, I would never had gotten married as I do consider myself to be a solosexual. I have not had sex with my wife in over a year and a half now and I have no desire to ever have sex again.

It was also able to find other addicts out there just like me. For so long I felt I was so alone but the masturbation community is so large and so strong. When you actually find another masturbator who truly understand the need and addiction, it is such a strong connection. I have not found many but when I do its fills me with such joy.

I also had many other chronic bators give me lessons on edging and then gooning. Once I found out how to edge, that changed my masturbation forever. I loved the feeling I got as I would stoke myself to the very brink of cumming and then hold back. What I found too is at the end of my hours long sessions, I would not cum. After talking with others and reading more and more about edging, I understand now that this is an incredible feeling. By holding back, I find that my need for masturbation continues to grow. I find now that when I do let myself actually cum, I get depressed and feel guilty. By not cumming my need for cock and porn continually feeds me and my and I can go deeper and deeper into my addiction.

My hard cock in my hand is the only sex I ever want and sharing my addiction with other chronic addicted masturbators is all I want!

The last step in my addiction was poppers. I saw a porn film where a guy was using them and started to ask about them in chat rooms. I then noticed that they sold them in the porn store I went to and decided one day to try them. To say after the first huff I was hooked is an understatement. I FUCKING LOVE POPPERS!

The way they make me feel is incredible and I find that I can’t even masturbate anymore without them. They have driven my perversion to new levels and made me stroke to things I never thought I would. They also were the trigger that made me start to drip. I can still remember the first time I got to the edge and then took a big huff. I could feel my cock swell and even after I took my hand off my cock I could feel my cock throbbing. To my amazement I watched cum drip out of my cock. Not precum but actual cum. And the best part was I was still so aroused.

Dripping was not the full orgasm but it felt incredible but I also still had that strong desire to continue to masturbate and even eat my cum. Before this I always had the desire to try my cum but always lost the feeling as soon as I blew. In this case, I not only wanted to eat it, I could not wait until I dripped again so I could eat more! I started making vids of myself dripping and eating them and posting them on Bateworld and Xtube. I love looking to see how many times my vids have been viewed and knowing how many men have watch me masturbate. Better yet, I love knowing I make other men want to masturbate after they have watched my vids. I have had several guys tell me how long they have been watching my and it drives my crazing thinking of how many loads have been wasted to my vids.

UPDATE: 3/8/2020

Its 6:30AM and I am rock hard after reading that story again. Wow, it’s been just over 3 years since I wrote that story. I am now 55 years old and my addiction is as strong as ever. Sitting here with my pre covered cock in my hand just thinking back over the years of my growing addiction.

It’s now been a little over 4 years since I have fucked my wife. It’s so amazing to just say that! I am a pussy free, married, chronic addicted masturbator and I have no desire to ever fuck again! This is my life and I love it more than anything. My wife and I have tried to have sex over the years but it usually ends up with me not being able to get hard and her very disappointed. If she ever saw how hard I was right now she would flip out. I have become an expert at avoiding situations where sex might be initiated. It’s a skill all married, pussy free, chronic masturbators need to master.

As I mentioned, my addiction is as strong as ever. I masturbate 4/5 hours a day and try to do much more on the weekends. Every chance I get I am masturbating my cock. I love spending hours on end edging my hard cock.

I have also been trying to grow my connections to other true chronic addicted bators. This is such a great part of my addiction and I always feel so lucky when I do connect. Over the years I have had the pleasure of connecting with so many but there really have only been a few that I have continued to stay in touch with. I feel such a true loss when I loss that connection.

My true goal is to meet face to face with another chronic bator. The idea of being in the same room and being fully exposed to another true addict drives me crazy. I want to sit in front of another addict and just have him watch and encourage me to masturbate and goon. Fuckkkkkk I get so hard thinking about that. The closest I have gotten to that is doing face to face with one of my bate buddies on Skype. We meet in Bateworld a number of years ago. We started out just camming and not showing our faces but as we got more comfortable with each other we started to do full face camming. I still remember the first time I made a video of myself showing my face and sending it to him on Skype. I was so nervous but also so excited. Again, just that idea of being so exposed made me goon so hard. When I got a video of him showing his face, we were both hooked! He has made videos where he has me on his big screen TV and they are amazing!! Watching him, watching me makes me goon so fucking hard. He is married to so he really “gets” it! One of these days, we hope to meet up and stroke face to face.

I have no plans to ever stop feeding my addiction and masturbating my cock. Masturbation and porn are my life and all I want to do is to go deeper and deeper each day. I want to get lost in my addiction and continue to help other bators go deeper as well.

Thank you all! My email is chronic_bator@yahoo.com if you would like to get in touch with me.